You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.
This is terrifying to me. So first things first…We need a cocktail!
2 oz. light rum
6-7 mint leaves (small handful)
1/2 a lime cut into wedges (add juice from the remaining half if you like it more tart)
Juice of half a small orange (or the whole thing if you like it sweeter)
Sparkling mineral water
Place ice, lime, and mint in a shaker and muddle to crush the mint and lime. Add rum and fresh squeezed orange juice, shake. Pour into a glass filled with ice. Top with sparkling mineral water.
Refreshing and naturally sweetened.
Alright, here goes…
So the idea of starting some kind of website/web business has been with me for awhile now…
I am very free spirited and feel confined in the typical work environment. I crave freedom and like to do things my way. I need adventure and excitement. I’m very much an Aries.
I have had this domain for at least 3 years. It has been sitting blank, waiting for something to happen. I needed some inspiration. I’m also paralyzed by fear when it comes to putting myself out there.
I started to receive encouragement from those around me to just start writing…Now, had it just come from one person I would have totally dismissed it. But I kept hearing it, so I had to at least consider the idea.
But I am not a writer! How could I write a blog? What are my qualifications? What do I have to contribute? Who will care?
Besides, I can’t write for shit! (at least that’s what my upper division English proficiency essay test said)
I am not a girl who kept a diary or journal…Write in my spare time? No thanks! I’m not one for self imposed suffering.
Aside from feeling like I lack proficiency in the writing department, I have a lifelong fear of what other people think.
I was taught that your reputation is everything. If that’s true, then other people’s opinion of you is more important than your opinion of yourself. Ridiculous if you think about it but it stuck nevertheless. This fear is something I still struggle with. But I prefer to take steps to confront it instead of letting the fear stifle me.
I like what Wayne Dyer has to say on this matter:
Your reputation is in the hands of others. That’s what the reputation is. You can’t control that. The only thing you can control is your character.
I strive for great character rather than a great reputation.
So this is just me, raw and keeping it real. No brand to hide behind. No facade. I know it will resonate with some and not others. And that’s okay. It’s impossible to please everyone, and I have no desire to do that. I enjoy individuality. It should be celebrated.
Opening myself up like this is the most terrifying thing I have ever done.
Here’s to having faith to act on inspiration and to following our path even when it scares the crap out us.
Cheers! It’s happy hour!